Ayahuasca and Bees
About five years ago I heard about Ayahuasca for the first time. Since then it has been circling around my attention and interest, slowly getting closer. A year ago I almost went for it, but not quite – I had developed such a respect to Ayahuasca and felt I shouldn’t take it too lightly. This year, after a shamanic ceremony a short time ago, the timing felt right.
I prepared myself for the encounter for four weeks, dropping alcohol and coffee early on. The last ten days I was eating a bland diet, which I initially thought would be extremely boring, but it actually proved to be interestingly taste bud-enhancing. I was so still, empty and ready as I could be.
The setting was warm, welcoming and supporting, and I felt very privileged to be in the situation of the whole experience. It was a private ceremony, with two wonderful people to watch over me.
(You can find them here, but alas, they don’t do Ayahuasca anymore)
Having read and heard reports of other’s experiences, I expected to be grabbed for a wild rollercoaster ride with some hard core cleansing followed by important lessons and messages to take to Heart. Can you imagine my surprise (and that of the organizers) when, after having ingested quite a lot of this mighty plant ally, I looked my mentors straight in the eyes and said “it’s quite subtle”. As if expecting to go to a heavy rock concert that would last the whole night, but instead, getting four teachings whispered softly in your ear, with long silences between each one. Beautiful teachings. Empowering, affirming, magically wonderful teachings, but oh so very softly that I had to keep my focus on them, laser sharp and steady as a rock or I’d miss them.
Even though the experience was so fine and subtle (exquisite!), it simmers on… And although I immediately ‘got what I was there for’ ( ‘to stand in my Power’ ) the re-set is still materializing as I’m writing this, still simmering on, as if it would be rippling through time and space, endlessly, solidifying…this, the experience and the knowing. See? Words are failing me here.
Perhaps it boils down to this: follow your joy, your inspiration, your happiness. What ever you do, do it from this perspective of your own pure Soul joy, and it will form your Life to according to your specific perspective, slant, angle, niche… And the elements within that ecosystem of your joyous Life will fit together seamlessly and function beautifully in a symbiotic manner, creating and abundance of good and healthy Life, to you and your loved ones, and for the Planet, all by itself.
All you need to do is to get rid of any toxicity in your life, be absolutely clear about your motivations and choose with your Heart. Your Heart is the ruler, your Mind the servant. Life provides you – with all the lessons, tools, allies and materials you need. Trust. Love. And have fun!
“When the bee guardian is ready, the bees will come” – that’s approximately how the words of my (biodynamic) beekeeper-mentor would translate to English, when I was asking his opinion on buying bees.
I’ve got my top bar hive in place for a little over two years now, waiting for an eager swarm to find it. And finally, we called a local beekeeper and agreed on a date when he’d come with a bee colony for my hive.
The day before the agreed date, our dear neighbor came half-running of excitement to our door “Nina, there’s a swarm in our garden!”. I dropped everything and hurried behind him to the spot. And indeed, in the middle of the garden, in a small tree or a large bush, at a very convenient working level, a swarm was gathering together.
To cut a long story short, these were the sweetest, most patient and forgiving bees. It took me four attempts to catch the cluster with the queen (and keeping her), but catching and eventually transferring the swarm from our neighbors’ garden to my hive was a success, and now they are settled and I adore them. There is absolutely no fear, no tension, just a blissful being-ness when I spend time with them. Pure joy of living, unconditional Love and a strong sense of belonging emanate from the bees and I’m so incredibly grateful to be allowed to offer a home to them.
The catch: no matter how long it takes, it’s so worth the wait. Have faith, have patience. When the time is right, it will come – and it’ll be sweet.
(Original post from 2017 revised in 2019)